Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Hmmm...
I cannot respond directly because i have no idea what you are talking about. really. leave the cheem words to me; i can't understand the metaphors you use, nor the "they". I seriously have no idea what you are talking about. be more direct, pls.
seriously? i just find that your conversation with me is strained, and you just confirmed that.
i guess trying to avoid "you-know-who" would prove a problem considering that person is practically the centre of your universe.
but guess what? i dun care.
There are other topics and as long as you dun sound strained when talking to me, i dun mind
yes, i do agree that you have been seeming rather hypocritical of late. you and Someone Else.
But hey. I didnt want to say anything for fear of losing you, for fear of instigating another heated arguement.
im for peace, alright?
i
have been distancing myself from you, I'vc noticed.
But its all because i can't bring myself to get closer
When i watch from afar, i ache for you. yes, i do.
Yet, when I'm right beside you, i have nothing to do, nothing to say. Just nothing.
It could be a mental barrier I've set up.
I do not know what constitutes this barrier, just that it does weaken
It weakens whenever I have long, comfortable conversations with you
Or when I... have physical contact with you
Maybe because when you touch me, its a reassurance
Its a signal of closeness; or maybe i just need it.
You have to take the initiative; because you make me feel like a molester.
I probably sound like some pervert now, so I'll stop.
Just know that the distance-- its not your fault.
You are important, yes
But I Cant.
Can't bring myself to go back to normal
Can't seem to find a way around the "mental barrier"
I'm sorry.
But you know what? YOU come closer.
